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夜寝られない時

Wed, 20 Aug 2008 09:44:53 GMT

So, I'm the only one up in my household; reminiscing about my life. What started out being a house full of people has kind of dwindled down into a house full of disappointment. This house is dirty, unclean, and down right filthy. We who live here are more shrews than anything, keeping to our own nooks; hiding away from each other. I thought that this last year I have of freedom was going to be an amazing adventure, but it seems that I did not mold my fleeting youth into anything that will really be carried on my mind.

Thinking back to my college experience, I had a lot of fun. All this entertainment--of course-- had it's price. I remember all those times I could of gone to class, and also all those exciting moments I had because I was absent. But when it comes right down to it, all I really have in my mind is regret.

I think of all those lost opportunities, all the deep fulfilling relationships, all the great times that could of been. Is that what everyone thinks of? I've always tried to live my life with as little regret as I can. I usually say what I want, do what I want. But can anyone live a life truly satisfied with everything that had be done?

I think I boasted a little too much in that previous statement. I do and say what I want as long as it has no connection to my emotions. I do not wear my emotions on my sleeves. I suppose that is a good thing. Having everyone know your deepest darkest secrets is a horrible thing to live with. But also a little liberating I suppose.

Cleaning up my room room last night I came upon some things in my drawer. I am very much so a pack rat and it's actually very hard for me to let things go. At the same time I really can't stand messes; every so often I just look through everything I have and just start throwing things away. Reading through some of the notes that I received and also the pictures that my friends had sent me makes me feel like an asshole.

I really try not to be inconsiderate, but sometimes I just forget things. It really annoys me when people do it to me, but yea... Double standards, it's a bitch. One of my friends wrote me a letter that I don't think I had even read until that day. Hahaha, she wrote about something quite funny that happened between us. And I never wrote back. I didn't even know I had a letter.

Then I start looking through some more and I find a completely unopened envelope from another good friend. Now, I think this was from a long time ago. Maybe even my freshman year. So I open it up and take a look. It was pictures my friend took when she went swimming in the oceans of Japan or maybe Hawaii, and she was surrounded by a school of dolphins. It was quite an amazing picture, and I was really surprised because I never knew she did that.

This is why I am going to try to put together a care package for my Japanese friends. I don't really know if they'll appreciate it as much as it will make me feel good to send it out, but I really don't care. It's all about me me me! Well at least it will make me feel better about myself.

In a month or so I will be flying to China with my parents. I don't know if I'm going to Japan, but I might. I dread taking this trip and spending so much time with my parents. Understandably they are my parents, but I haven't associated them with fun in my life for a very long time. I want to bring someone along to make it more bearable, but sadly no one really has the time or the money to make a trip like that.

On the other hand, I really don't think I can find someone that I'd want to go with. someone that will make the trip fun for me. Well I guess we'll have to see how things unfurl. Until then, have fun looking at these pictures.

I really just ran out of steam.

What happend to xanga?

Mon, 05 May 2008 06:46:25 GMT

I think at some point they just went too ridiculous with the layout. It was nice before. Simple, effective. Now it's just cluttered.

So, I was looking for suspenders and I came upon this model. And wow is she a looker!

Yea, she's just hotter than the sun. We all know.

I feel like I wanted to write something, but now I really have nothing to write. Maybe I'll be back later.

Saturday, August 18, 2007

Sat, 18 Aug 2007 13:25:26 GMT

11:14pm - 18 August 2007

Well today is the first leg of our (Xuong, Tyler, and I) Japan extravaganza!!! w00!!! BE EXCITED!!! We`re current chilling with host families in Tanabe, a small rural city in Japan. It`s quite homey here and I heart staying with my Japanese Mom. =D

Today, I just went around and sat. Which is pretty fun by my standards. Tomorrow we are going to play tennis with Saori`s brother Hiro. He was one rediculously large tennis arm, and I`m sure we`re going to get wh00ped up on.

Before we finally head back to America on the 31st we`re gonna hit up Osaka and Tokyo. Oh yea, I`m not sure if I have a ride yet, so if you`re free, maybe you`ll consider giving us a ride. Tee hee

Oh yea, there`s a fucking cockroach the length of my middle finger in the room right now. h0ller. Pictures will be posted after we get back from Japan. w00t.

Thursday, August 09, 2007

Thu, 09 Aug 2007 01:15:54 GMT

06:56pm - 08 August 2007

Virginity.

Okay, here's a random rant. Why does society value virginity? I mean it's a nice thought, non-refurbished goods. But what does that actually do for you? I'm really not advocating going out there and whoring yourself, but what's wrong with exploring yourself and your world?

Here's my main concern, infidelity. How are you going to know who you like, what you like, where you like it if you don't go play the field? You don't have to be a whore, but before I finally get settled down I would like to know that my partner would know what she wants. And therefore picked me after looking at her past experiences and have valid reasons to love or hate me.

The main reason for infidelity is unfulfillable needs. If your partner doesn't have what you want you're obviously going to go look for it.

What can you expect from people? We aren't perfect and neither are you. So stop expecting that we are a perfect species.

Go out, use protection, and have fun.

Thursday, August 02, 2007

Thu, 02 Aug 2007 19:22:31 GMT

01:12pm - 02 August 2007

I found these wonderful descriptions on an online cook book. =D

Yum, makes me so hungary. =D

Tuesday, July 24, 2007

Tue, 24 Jul 2007 00:57:14 GMT

06:49pm - 23 July 2007

So, I think I'm over baseball. It's time to go back to my roots!!! Soccer all the way!!!

Soccer seems to look better in China, here's proof:

Can't wait for the next world cup!!!

Friday, June 29, 2007

Fri, 29 Jun 2007 08:47:57 GMT

02:36am - 29 June 2007

When I was little I used to play with this very nice blond girl next door. She was quite cute and active. I had some of the happiest days of my life with her. But I really don't know where she is now or even how's she's doing. I hope she is well.

Well I guess it would be quite odd for me to run into her, I don't even know how she remembers me. Was I the annoying chinese kid from next door? Did she think I smelled funny? Who knows. Her whole family moved away from the neighborhood that I was in before I moved away.

Wednesday, June 27, 2007

Wed, 27 Jun 2007 09:13:32 GMT

02:59am - 27 June 2007

I long for childhood. I miss old friends and loves; the world which was mostly unknown. Loves long gone and past. I want it all back. Doesn't it always make sense? You want everything that you don't have and this is something that even money cannot give me.

What will I do when I grow old and die? Will I be alone? Will it be soon? I don't want this to be a depressing post, but instead an inspiring one. I want to think outside of the box as it were and find something new that I can be excited about; something to recapture my innocence. How can I ever love like I've never been hurt again?

If I can have anything, I would want that most of all. I want to be naive; I want to be reborn.

I think Bridge to Terebithia is the new My Girl.

Sunday, June 24, 2007

Sun, 24 Jun 2007 03:49:05 GMT

09:41pm - 23 June 2007

Well I've finally found time and something to write about. I'm on summer vacation and chilling. Working the same days I usually do. But summer school just started last week and it seems particularly chill. I'm in Public Speaking with the HOTTEST teacher ever. I mean wow. I actually listen in class now.

I've also now got summer plans. I'm going to fly out to HK on August 10th and then to Japan on August 17 before returning to America on the 1st of September. w00t! HOW fun! I know. Well I'm going to end up going with Xuong and Tyler. Hahaha, I haven't been to Japan with Xuong since high school so this has GOT to be fun. I'm looking for quite an enjoyable experience.

I'm also looking for a Japanese girl. h0ller.